Sorry, it has been ages since I posted! If I told you the true story behind my absence, you probably wouldn't believe me anyway. Let's just say, I am elated that I got to spend Christmas with my Sister, and I am praying for a New Year full of happiness, opportunities, and less rocky roads (not the sort you eat, I meant metaphorically, I haven't had one of those in years... damn it) "I don't know who to be anymore." In life, we all face the problem of identity and feelings of insecurity about where we belong in society and in the great world of work. I met a dozen of professionals recently, and it gave me some perspective on what "work" actually relates to. These attributes can be meddled with in relation to the apparent socio-economic structure, and I for one, believe this to be another false perception as we are all human beings, deserving of recognition and opportunity to excel in our chosen fields of expertise. These feelings of uncertainty,

I think what we need to see on more blogs, Pinterest boards, and in mainstream media, that shall deliver triumph, power and attitude; a long debated statement in the fashion world - be it more a lifestyle as opposed to a 'phase' or 'trend'... that's 'alternative' to you and me! Recently, with the changing seasons, some reflection and a revamp in my wardrobe, I have re-discovered my love for alternative fashion. It's true, we associate goth, punk, rocker, emo, scene etc. with the varied taste in music, selective choice of bands, brands and style icons. In conjunction with this particular look, it is permissive for the collection who may feel they do not fall into a category outside of this spectrum, in regards to pop-culture, that I believe deserves further appreciation. Marilyn Manson - via Pinterest Hayley Williams - galeri.uludagsozluk.com Jared Leto - fansided.com Not only do these figures in the alt-world provide themselve

I guess I may have to write something here, do I not? Having little notifications popping up intermittently in my emails and Facebook, with concern as to why I hadn't posted again since, well, it will almost have been a whole month now! I'm not going to hold back what I am about to reveal. I am sharing this information on my blog for a couple of reasons. 1) It may enlighten someone else, for them to know that they are never alone, no matter how difficult things have become, for I have surely been there. 2) Just because I am from an affluent area, fairly well educated and would appear to have very few problems, I do not wish others to assume I lack compassion for them too. I may have more empathy for you than you think. I have struggled, insanely. Especially during this entire year, it would seem. I think 2015 hasn't been my strongest year, but I have certainly had a chance to explore myself as a person, and meet new people from circles I would otherwise had never com

My life of late has felt like mission impossible. For every symbol of synchronicity occurring in my life, the more I begin to see the error of my thinking. It is true that there is no harm in having a critical mind, on the contrary it does reveal to us, within time, the dark patterns of our own behaviour. I have absolutely no doubt that all of our ideas and ambitions are somewhat shared, and there is an apparent power struggle for those trying to achieve and create the life of their dreams. We must remember, that whenever we absorb information, it buries and saturates itself into the subconscious, and can later cause detrimental effects on our day to day functioning, if taken too literally. So let us be mindful of the sort of activities we participate in and the kind of role models we chose to follow. I myself, have embarked on a journey that has opened up a world of opportunity, but also creativity and compassion. My religious studies have pushed me to the brink of sanity. I have v

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What a strange week so far! It is true, my life is in perfect chaos. There's a distant voice, somewhere from the peripheral, either telling me to give up, coaxing my higher self to forget it, its not worth it, just get pissed and say "screw you" to life... or the more likely truth, is that it is all in my tired imagination and I'm not going to succumb to it's negativity! Parts of me do not want me to succeed. It is unjust and unfair, to actively dishearten someone for characteristics they maintain, whilst they're not fulfilling their own real potential in this dimension. I would not expect any one to hold me back from what I desperately enjoy in my personal life, for them to then treat me with less dignity and set up compromises in order to attain selfish constructs of reality. A bold statement to make here is that we are, irrespective to popular belief, alone. Trapped in the subjectiveness of our own heads, it is our personal responsibility to take

I haven't written on here for a good while, since I've been distracted with the inevitable elements of every day life. Final Major Project just about killed me off, and balancing the right mixture of social, work and recreational interests and commitments, is a craft in its own right. I can understand more clearly now, why it has become a job in itself to just, well, survive. I briefly looked at Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs, and in society's dog-eat-dog nature, constant rush for another sweet rush, and pressures appearing from every angle of our approach, the sad truth is that no matter what you do, you can't please every one and yourself. At some point, you're going to have to leave the unhealthy, old ideals of living, and exchange them for something else, because despite whatever benefit you believe this outdated system has to offer you, in the long term, it is only going to wear away at your psyche and quality of life more with time. There is no softer versio

Hi. It's about time I wrote something again for my readers! I have had an exponential roller coaster as usual since my last post. I have lost myself, attached to past events which are no longer existing in the present and unfortunately it has held me back in some ways. This blog entry is to identify a particularly odd episode of my life. It does involve recent events in Notts, fashion and of course, it's most important quality- is it's people! You know when you are just laying awake at night thinking about someone or something that just won't leave you and you are baffled at its power over your mind, we all have those nights. The key is to remain strong and take pleasure in the little things, even if it is just a cup of coffee on your settee in the morning, in the peace of your own abode. My fashion today consists of a pair of harem pants which are loose and lightweight material, especially nice for riding my bike in the sunshine. Remember, it is the little th

...And I sure got my kicks this evening. Matthew Hunt triumphed in his authentic and intimate performance, "Honest" written by DC Moore, truly encapsulates the inner turmoil we each endure throughout our daily lives. He beautifully illustrates hard truths with in this re-enactment, and conveys its messages with passion and sincerity.  To reserve tickets for events link to fontfestnotts.blogspot.co.uk There are further play-works for us at Lee Rosy's Nottingham again tomorrow, and all across the weekend at various venues, in conjunction with FONT Fest including stand up groups such as The Mouthy Poets and Nonsuch Theatre. Furthermore, The Vaccines new album 'English Graffiti' is definitely worth plugging into to wind down tonight if you're an indie head like me!

I know my last blog entry may have seemed like I was on drugs or not feeling well, but at the end of the day, I think I was suffering an episode of poor-mental health, and at the time, it was a genuine attempt to get my ideas across to you readers and to tickle your imaginations a bit. Although I wouldn't wish any one to be plagued by my daft ideas day in, day out; it would drive you batty! I understand that some people like to read as a form of escapism, or to learn, or for entertainment, and sometimes the things I say or write about tend to bewilder the reader and can make them laugh, or cry. (Hopefully cry with laughter because they are the best kind of tears) Perhaps it gives leeway for bragging rights, I've never considered myself the type of person to narrate my entire life story each day to a bunch of strangers, yet I think that nowadays I have delicately obtained the subtle art of not giving a shit. That is to say, I will share with you what I deem appropriate :) L

One of my philosophical musings, today. To make this blog more engaging and readable for a wider diversity of audiences, stepping away from stereotypical 'beauty and fashion' blogs, because that has never been my true sole intention. I have to admit it has been a wild journey to get to this point. I could never have prefigured until now, my reflection has become so much more real. I realize I am no super woman. Indeed, there is evidence that supports what I have recently observed in my life, it is not always possible to have every thing we want at any given time. It would seem there are not enough hours in the day! :') I particularly find joy from discussing extensively around the topics of spirituality, well-being and alternative medicine, such as spirit-science, which you may regard as a hoax or fairly stated ill-informed. None the less, I do consider its legitimacy, for its appeal is personal to my own experiences of life and since I am exploring the many faiths

Here I debug the illusions and miscalculations of what it means to be beautiful. 1. Myth: That being pale skinned is not attractive. Truth: If you travel to foreign third world climates, the local farmers will literally beg you to cover your skin since fair skinned people are considered rich as they don't have to work in labouring conditions. On the other hand, in cooler places such as England, a healthy glow suggests that you go on holiday a lot and therefore can afford more trips abroad. Hey-Ho. A lot of red-carpet celebrities are often very white and against treatments such as sun-beds. 2. Myth: That more make-up products applied = better features. Truth: Less is more! I've said this before, but make-up is supposed to accentuate what you already have. Yes we have all seen strangers morph into Kim Kardashian with the art of face contouring, on the other hand, most men would agree that they prefer to see the same face when they wake up to you in the morning, as from the