I cut a bad habit many years ago, by application of the philosophy that every day I didn't do (x) activity, I was ultimately one closer to better health ; I knew that if I could achieve this, then I would attain the insights as to how to advise others with similar conflicting desires. I do realise that absolute self determination and persistence isn't a guarantee that commitments will stand the test of time, yet we can certainly hope so(!) Originally, the reason that prompted me to change was because my (now-ex) boyfriend insisted I seek a psychological intervention in the form of a qualified therapist - reality was he had his own mental turmoil, by which he tethered reverse psychology upon me as a technique of "guilt tripping." I have vague theories about why he acted as he did to warp my senses. (Gaslighting) What I believed to be my own logic and free-will, perhaps what I lacked initially, before entering a relationship such as this one, I can contend that my de...

After a recent progression in my journey of enlightenment, I have reclaimed possession of some of my physical gear. It is truly a debt in my karma and since I have missed two summers of imaginable nights out, nights in, with the girls and guys I became acquainted with through Uni days. Nothing seems to stick with me. The friends I thought I had made quickly disappeared faster than I can smoke a cigarette. This is an example of chaos theory at its finest. Every decision I had made to move from house to house across Nottingham only brought me back to where I began. A house in a nice area with educated people; but does this represent the real essence of me? Since I started Uni, I have been surrounded by people engrossed in their chosen subject, all battling it out in their field to achieve their dream job. They have created a serious change of perspective on my own future, and the chances of me settling with what I want, rather than allowing an unknown fate to decide mine for me. Ene...